3.07.2012
3.05.2012
February's Poems
masterpieced
Sacred Silence bleeds like ink
inching out from spattered blots
black across the paper of my mind
moving over every crevice, slowly
saturating thirsty wrinkled parchment
presenting a still, acquitted form
for you, waiting, for You
to augment,
asking inspiration.
in technicolor brilliance, words bloom
bursting onto pages of thought in rich lines
licking pain across my skin
stunning colors steal the black
breaking silence, Sacred Snap
soaking my mind with vibrant hues
holding insight paramount
pinned beneath what is your pen,
until the still, acquitted me
measures into what you see;
masterpieced by You.
© surrina booke 2012
Allocations
the freedom from his permission
to slide hands o'er his skin
to relish the textures ‘neath fingertip
press my lips to warm flesh
lose myself in simple sensation
of skin on skin with soft sigh
of bliss
the allowance from his sanction
to seek his kiss
to be brought to utter capitulation
from mere brush of lip ‘gainst lip
share his breath moments before mouths
meet and know just how wholly i
am his
the liberation from his assent
to be at his feet
wrap myself around his leg
secure and safe, my head upon his knee
leave myself there as i part
where i most want
to be
© surrina booke 2012
beseeching
oh, give me something to do for you
to ease you, to aid you
limited reach that i have
service that i bring to you
my self is all that i am
may i help in some small way?
what difference can i make?
what of this can i take?
to ease you, to aid you
in giving for your sake
outstretched hands, pleading heart
i’m helpless in this state
please, give me something to do for you
sum your burdens from great to few
gather all and steal away
to ease you, to aid you
lift millstone from your neck
i’d gladly bear the weight
but you are there and i am here
and idle hands must wait, i fear
to know the joy of work for you
and comfort, hold you near
troubles, yours i cannot share
wait still, unfolded heart
© surrina booke 2012
Vanilla Chains
Tonight I cry for him
Slow tears in staggered moments
That come with the futility of being idle
As I sit in the corner of my mundane cage
Helpless to help him
Seeing his struggles
Knowing his hurt
And unable to reach
Streaked cheeks press against the bars of my prison
Though I strain toward him
I gain no brush on fingertip
I am trapped
Incarcerated
By these vanilla chains and rails
This bondage I like not.
© surrina booke 2012
Keeper
lead me with your firmest grip
teach me with strong mind
bend me with your steadfast will
guide me as I grow
place each step along the path
with your solid word
but when you Know me, Keeper, mine,
Know me with Your Soul
© surrina booke 2012
Sacred Silence bleeds like ink
inching out from spattered blots
black across the paper of my mind
moving over every crevice, slowly
saturating thirsty wrinkled parchment
presenting a still, acquitted form
for you, waiting, for You
to augment,
asking inspiration.
in technicolor brilliance, words bloom
bursting onto pages of thought in rich lines
licking pain across my skin
stunning colors steal the black
breaking silence, Sacred Snap
soaking my mind with vibrant hues
holding insight paramount
pinned beneath what is your pen,
until the still, acquitted me
measures into what you see;
masterpieced by You.
© surrina booke 2012
Allocations
the freedom from his permission
to slide hands o'er his skin
to relish the textures ‘neath fingertip
press my lips to warm flesh
lose myself in simple sensation
of skin on skin with soft sigh
of bliss
the allowance from his sanction
to seek his kiss
to be brought to utter capitulation
from mere brush of lip ‘gainst lip
share his breath moments before mouths
meet and know just how wholly i
am his
the liberation from his assent
to be at his feet
wrap myself around his leg
secure and safe, my head upon his knee
leave myself there as i part
where i most want
to be
© surrina booke 2012
beseeching
oh, give me something to do for you
to ease you, to aid you
limited reach that i have
service that i bring to you
my self is all that i am
may i help in some small way?
what difference can i make?
what of this can i take?
to ease you, to aid you
in giving for your sake
outstretched hands, pleading heart
i’m helpless in this state
please, give me something to do for you
sum your burdens from great to few
gather all and steal away
to ease you, to aid you
lift millstone from your neck
i’d gladly bear the weight
but you are there and i am here
and idle hands must wait, i fear
to know the joy of work for you
and comfort, hold you near
troubles, yours i cannot share
wait still, unfolded heart
© surrina booke 2012
Vanilla Chains
Tonight I cry for him
Slow tears in staggered moments
That come with the futility of being idle
As I sit in the corner of my mundane cage
Helpless to help him
Seeing his struggles
Knowing his hurt
And unable to reach
Streaked cheeks press against the bars of my prison
Though I strain toward him
I gain no brush on fingertip
I am trapped
Incarcerated
By these vanilla chains and rails
This bondage I like not.
© surrina booke 2012
Keeper
lead me with your firmest grip
teach me with strong mind
bend me with your steadfast will
guide me as I grow
place each step along the path
with your solid word
but when you Know me, Keeper, mine,
Know me with Your Soul
© surrina booke 2012
3.04.2012
Feeling a bit down...
So yesterday E and I had a tiny bit of time together (he's been away with work for the past week or so) that was filled with some rather intense stuff for me.. He actually got tears from me with some particular placement of clamps and the movement of said clamps. I was barely able to handle the ones on my pussy to begin with but when he moved them... yeah. I didn't handle that very well at allllllll I'm not sure if I actually begged him to take it off or not, but I was pleading in my head.
The second time was pretty damn unintentional. He had me in some precarious bondage and had nipple clamps attached to something at my knees and I was bent over and he was inside me and it was getting damn good but his phone rang and he moved to answer it which threw off my balance which caused tremendous nipple pain. I was blindfolded, but I was going grey... my vision went wonky it hurt so bad and I 'm not exactly sure what happened between that time and the time he got me on the bed, but my face was wet and my nose was sniffly. I'm assuming tears.
Everything else was wonderful. Intense and wonderful, but we didn't get any time to savor it. I had to rush out and get back home to the kids and then by the time I was where I could get back online to talk to him he was out for the evening. We talked briefly on the phone before bed but not much and then today all I've gotten have been offline messages.
I don't want to feel needy or to seem needy either. I've been fighting tears since around lunch and I'm nuzzling my snuzzle monkey as I lie in bed writing this. Geographically he's closer to me than he has been in a week, but I feel even further away. I know he wants to get time in with everyone and that I have other obligations that keep me from being able to spend the time I want with him and that this situation can't really be helped right now to much degree of satisfaction, but that doesn't stop me from feeling so... left.
I'm going to stop writing before I start crying.
~surri
The second time was pretty damn unintentional. He had me in some precarious bondage and had nipple clamps attached to something at my knees and I was bent over and he was inside me and it was getting damn good but his phone rang and he moved to answer it which threw off my balance which caused tremendous nipple pain. I was blindfolded, but I was going grey... my vision went wonky it hurt so bad and I 'm not exactly sure what happened between that time and the time he got me on the bed, but my face was wet and my nose was sniffly. I'm assuming tears.
Everything else was wonderful. Intense and wonderful, but we didn't get any time to savor it. I had to rush out and get back home to the kids and then by the time I was where I could get back online to talk to him he was out for the evening. We talked briefly on the phone before bed but not much and then today all I've gotten have been offline messages.
I don't want to feel needy or to seem needy either. I've been fighting tears since around lunch and I'm nuzzling my snuzzle monkey as I lie in bed writing this. Geographically he's closer to me than he has been in a week, but I feel even further away. I know he wants to get time in with everyone and that I have other obligations that keep me from being able to spend the time I want with him and that this situation can't really be helped right now to much degree of satisfaction, but that doesn't stop me from feeling so... left.
I'm going to stop writing before I start crying.
~surri
busy busy busy
So I've undertaken projects. I'm planning like mad and doing tons of research and I'm completely geeking out on it and loving it!
I hope to do a series of kinky eating gatherings this summer. :D yay! I want them to be fun, but also somewhat educational... I do love to learn.
The plans:
Nyotaimori Night:
We are blessed to have a chef among those in our group and this night was his idea. It was this idea that sparked my concept of a kinky eating series of events. However, he is handling the details of this night.
This may or may not be held during spring break.
Edible Aphrodisiac Exploration and Discussion of Butler's Books:
Exploring aphrodisiacs is just fun. This event will be more of a tasting than a sit down dinner. I'll prepare several dishes with as many aphrodisiac ingredients as I can and display them with a description of their ingredients and why those particular ingredients are considered to affect libido and arousal. The butler's books is to make certain the following dinners don't cause any allergic reactions, offend any vegans or vegetarians, or have people leaving food on their plates simply because they're not fond of it. I plan to have a template of a basic page for each person to fill out and will offer copies of these for anyone that wishes to have them. This is also to help me with future parties and is simply the beginning of what I expect will be an extensive book.
As soon as schools let out for the summer
1950's themed D/s Dinner:
A lower protocol and semi-formal concept to sort of work up to the intimidation of a formal high protocol event. I plan to serve dishes typical of the American 1950's served either family style or buffet style, employ music and attire common in that time period as well as discuss 1950's households.
Two weeks after the Aphrodisiac Exploration.
Owner and pet Style Dinner:
This dinner is a bit more intense in protocol, but not in table manners. It is also an exploration in the dynamic between Owner and pet style D/s. The pets will serve the meal, wear as little as possible, kneel to the left of their Owners and crawl whenever possible (not during serving food or drink). The Owners will hand feed their pets during the meal and the pets will have speech limitations. I plan to prepare a sort of finger food menu for this event to make it simpler for the Owners to feed their pets. I know we have several switches and unpartnered persons in our group and am asking that the switches choose a role for the evening and stick to it and that the unpartnered ones contact me beforehand so that I may make arrangements if possible.
One month following the 1950's Dinner.
Formal High Protocol Dinner:
This event is still fluctuating until I solidify a place to have it, tables, and place settings for all interested parties. A "Collar and Cocktail" period will start the event for everyone to relax a bit and shift from vanilla life. It is during this time that we will do a sort of ribbon ceremony to pair any unpartnered persons for the evening.
The food will be prepared immediately beforehand and be ready for plating. Each submissive will plate food for and serve their assigned Dominant as well as themselves in sync; plating simultaneously, but serving the Dominants first then returning to the kitchen to bring out their own food. (hopefully! :D )
I hope for at least a 5 course meal, but the menu is not solidified. Using Mistress Zeneca(Starseer on Fetlife)'s manual as a loose guide, I am attempting to create our own version of protocol for this event and will have a review of it two weeks previous to the dinner. This will be the close to our summer series. The dinner itself is to be one month after the Owner and pet style dinner if everything goes as hoped...
WHEW! Ok. So just to give you an idea of how absorbed I've been in this... I've had this window open writing this post for 3 days. lol I tweaked a few things in the plans over that time and I'm finally posting! yay!!!! hahahaha. Hopefully I'll be able to pull all this off!
I hope to do a series of kinky eating gatherings this summer. :D yay! I want them to be fun, but also somewhat educational... I do love to learn.
The plans:
Nyotaimori Night:
We are blessed to have a chef among those in our group and this night was his idea. It was this idea that sparked my concept of a kinky eating series of events. However, he is handling the details of this night.
This may or may not be held during spring break.
Edible Aphrodisiac Exploration and Discussion of Butler's Books:
Exploring aphrodisiacs is just fun. This event will be more of a tasting than a sit down dinner. I'll prepare several dishes with as many aphrodisiac ingredients as I can and display them with a description of their ingredients and why those particular ingredients are considered to affect libido and arousal. The butler's books is to make certain the following dinners don't cause any allergic reactions, offend any vegans or vegetarians, or have people leaving food on their plates simply because they're not fond of it. I plan to have a template of a basic page for each person to fill out and will offer copies of these for anyone that wishes to have them. This is also to help me with future parties and is simply the beginning of what I expect will be an extensive book.
As soon as schools let out for the summer
1950's themed D/s Dinner:
A lower protocol and semi-formal concept to sort of work up to the intimidation of a formal high protocol event. I plan to serve dishes typical of the American 1950's served either family style or buffet style, employ music and attire common in that time period as well as discuss 1950's households.
Two weeks after the Aphrodisiac Exploration.
Owner and pet Style Dinner:
This dinner is a bit more intense in protocol, but not in table manners. It is also an exploration in the dynamic between Owner and pet style D/s. The pets will serve the meal, wear as little as possible, kneel to the left of their Owners and crawl whenever possible (not during serving food or drink). The Owners will hand feed their pets during the meal and the pets will have speech limitations. I plan to prepare a sort of finger food menu for this event to make it simpler for the Owners to feed their pets. I know we have several switches and unpartnered persons in our group and am asking that the switches choose a role for the evening and stick to it and that the unpartnered ones contact me beforehand so that I may make arrangements if possible.
One month following the 1950's Dinner.
Formal High Protocol Dinner:
This event is still fluctuating until I solidify a place to have it, tables, and place settings for all interested parties. A "Collar and Cocktail" period will start the event for everyone to relax a bit and shift from vanilla life. It is during this time that we will do a sort of ribbon ceremony to pair any unpartnered persons for the evening.
The food will be prepared immediately beforehand and be ready for plating. Each submissive will plate food for and serve their assigned Dominant as well as themselves in sync; plating simultaneously, but serving the Dominants first then returning to the kitchen to bring out their own food. (hopefully! :D )
I hope for at least a 5 course meal, but the menu is not solidified. Using Mistress Zeneca(Starseer on Fetlife)'s manual as a loose guide, I am attempting to create our own version of protocol for this event and will have a review of it two weeks previous to the dinner. This will be the close to our summer series. The dinner itself is to be one month after the Owner and pet style dinner if everything goes as hoped...
WHEW! Ok. So just to give you an idea of how absorbed I've been in this... I've had this window open writing this post for 3 days. lol I tweaked a few things in the plans over that time and I'm finally posting! yay!!!! hahahaha. Hopefully I'll be able to pull all this off!
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